21-10-05: he called me sabi nya if it was ok to see me that day, i was already planing on goin out with my brother and a friend para magbowling or at least watch anyway... sabi nya khit isang minuto lang daw... i didnt wanna seem like a stuck up snob so i said they could come but i told them i already had plans... since we were at starbucks dun nalang din namin cla hinintay ng friend nya... i was a nervous wreck... was doing a great job not showing it... so they came... him and his friend...

so we talked... nandun pa kapatid ko and our friend... sumama magbowling... uh oh... i had no idea that they would wanna go with us but they did... we ended up at this sports center type o' place... bowling, billiards, food and a bar which looked pretty good... since hindi ko naman kilala yung mga kasama ng friend namin we decided to lay low and hang out at the sports bar and play pool... c will, his friend, me and my bro... ayos naman... til they had to go...

22-10-05: we talked for hours on the phone... i felt like i was zapped back to my highschool kilig days...

23-10-05: more talk... by now i wait for my fone to ring and i jump each time it does...

24-10-05: more talk... is it possible ive met him in my previous life?

25-10-05: cant believe i missed biology coz i couldnt wait to talk to him...sat in starbucks for hours...my cellfone bill just skyrocketed but i dont really care...

26-10-05: imagining things... how can u see a future with someone u just met? usually, well for me anyway, id see a guy and id estimate the no. of weeks he'd last...

27-10-05: we met in an embrace and i didnt wanna let go... is it humanly possible to miss someone sitting right next to you and feel that you have to hold onto them the entire time scared that you'd wake up to realize it was a dream...

28-10-05: sawII was unbelievably inhuman, disgusting and downright psycho... but i toughed it up and watched the entire thing... mostly because he was sitting next to me...

*sigh

grabeh... i cannot even begin to say explain what im feeling right now... this word wont do it justice but here goes anyway...

kinikilig...

remeber that first cruch nung highschool? the first guy-call you got at home and u didnt know what to say? the first time you held hands? the first shy glance? your first rose? your first date?

that and more...

mga tol... could this be it? i dont even wanna know the answer to that question.. all im gonna say is im gonna hold on to this feeling as long as i can... this time around i know to take my time...

before i dreaded the thought of waking.. now i dream of that voice and await that laughter... u dont know it yet but uve awaken me...

its far too early to tell if this could be anything more... but im happy...

"gagabitch"

pardon the french but dont you think its funny? The spineless turd called me that yesterday... thanksgiving day...

he probably had to spend thanksgiving having turkey with his dogs... serves him just right for thinking he can go around calling people names like that...

now, im not a mean person and i do feel bad thinking he had to spend the holiday all by himself but i mean if he doesnt learn how to treat people with respect whod wanna be near him...

pathetic...

the moment of truth...

*monday*

i on purposely dressed pretty para naman iregret tlga ni *toot ang pagkalimot nya...harhar... strutted in the room all smiles and said hello took my usual seat next to crushee and mumbled small talk... *toot i knew was stealing glances but i pretended not to see... haha...smooth chloe...nice...

crushee and crush-er were giggling and poking tickles at each other for the first half of the class...

crush-er: stop it! im gonna poke ur eye next! quit it! <landi!>

crush-ee: haha... *toot says he wants to be abused too...

hahaha...i pretended not to hear and looked as if i was actually listening in math! yeah right... uwian na.... kumain kme ng pizza... walang change si *toot kaya sabi ko ako na...

crush-ee: see...man, u better stop bein an ass to her...

crush-er: yeah *toot u better start bein nice...

*toot: hahaha...<tawa lang>

later that night after crushee dropped me home... nagmessage ang mokong...

*toot: i was gonna give u a ride home but u went with crushee

chrush-er: u didnt even ask!!!  why didnt u say something?!

*toot: i know but i figured it was too late...

---> haayyy... men... cant live with em, cant live with em...

on the brighter side, i caught crushee staring at me though i pretended not to notice... i was grinning like an idiot for an hour! hahaha... hey, im just a girl....

i feel girly!!!